60/60

:D

I
DID
IT
!!

All the way to 60 days!
Just something else I noticed lately - Facebook is awfully negative - I'm gonna write a positive post :)
Im also working the next 6 days in a row, I'll take that challenge!

59/60

Well well.  Time for a legit post.  So in wrapping up this process I definitely think that there is a bit more I can do.  Re-read my posts for example.  I know there a lot that helped me in them, and I mean I wrote it so the thoughts are in my head, but there are times when you can use positive reminders and I think that this blog will continue to serve as a great tool for that.
I can honestly say I don't now what I was truly expecting from this project.  I know it was very ambitious and that I wasn't sure I'd even make it to half-way.  But I did.  And not only that I was actually seeing the change in myself I was trying for.
In talking about this the other day I was asked why I felt that this was something I needed to do.  My attitude wasn't necessarily viewed as poor , even positive perhaps, and I knew that too when I started.  I guess I knew that there was more that I could do.  Also, I figured that while others might not see it, its how I do that's important.  So changing my mindset vs saying the way I act is a key difference.  Not particularly how I handle things or what I say or do, but how I think about it.  Granted hat of course is connected with the rest and altogether it makes a great difference.

I know I have a day of writing ahead of me still, but I'm still not too sure what I want to do after that day.  Honestly keeping writing is again forcing me to think about things and process them - and that's great.  But writing just for the sake of writing (as I've done more than a couple times) isn't helping at all.  I guess a good goal (key word right there!) would be to write a few times a week, and make at least a couple of them legitimately count.  Even if its still reflecting on a quote that still opened my thoughts up a lot.  I suppose one thing to do would be to look at quotes I've already done and see how my thoughts have changed about them or at least how I am applying them to my life.

In any case I can't even begins to say how happy and proud I am of myself and this project.  I know theres still a lot more I can do to challenge myself and get my goals accomplished.  When I started this project I didn't even have goals written out.  It sure feels good :)

58/60

Tomorrow I will blog extra long.... kinda a "wrapping this up" type of post.  If I had any more to post tonight but I'm pretty blank.  :-\  Tomorrow will make up for it for reals.

57/60

Today..... I WORKED OUT.

I almost can't believe it myself!  Other than that I pretty much wasted my day off, but you gotta just do that once  and a while no? And 2AM is far to late to post for reals.  Regardless, talk about feeling good ;)  I got to talk a bit about this whole process to a close friend tonight as well.  Its simply reassuring and feels good too.  One day on and then another day off ;)  Not to bad!

56/60

Well today was full! Quite sleepy all day but work went smoothly and had dinner at home with the family and some out of town relatives.  All in all I would say that my mentality for this situation is incredibly improved over where I've started.  Tomorrow I will write considerably more, I need to figure out my motivation for this after a long days work still!

55/60

Ah the dynamics of groups.  Amazing isn't it how things can swing so drastically based off the individuals involved?  I know its a bit of a rhetorical question and being blind to its context it doesn't do much good.  But today was another good day.  A little time out in the sun, a little time reading, and an non-stressful evening at work.  I'd say all and all its good. I work again in the morning and it will be a busy day so I know it will carry over.  I hope in the meantime I can get some reading in :)  I know this again is a weak post by my standards, but again, illustrates the power of this positive mindset.

54/60

TODAY I looked for jobs.  Didn't find any BUT I took a big step in the right direction.  I suppose I now need to come up with a game plan/strategy for looking as just browsing doesn't seem to be doing the trick.
Otherwise today was a wonderful day off.  Relaxed, tanned, shaved, shopped around, and had a great dinner.   I will carry these good feelings over to tomorrow as the next two days of work are going to be a challenge, but one that I can handle.
In other news of my goals, I might start working out occasionally at my friend's condo gym, it might be just the kickstart I need to get the ball rolling so to speak.  Also, I found a potential apartment.  That being said I still do think that I'm going to keep holding my cards on that one until I get a little direction on the career search.

53/60

Work seems to always be surprising.  My goal tomorrow: jump back into job hunting.

Speaking of goals, I never posted my updated goals for a little while back, well here they are!

GOALS:

Apartment

March (On track to have funds by end of feb.)

April latest

Work Out

April (hopefully after apartment, still in process)

May

Job

Jan 2013

July Apply (need to get cracking)

Positive Mindset

(great progress so far)

Friends

(ah well…)

Relationship?

(still need to figure that one out)

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So I'd say as of now, I'm not so sure about an apartment just because I want a get a better idea of what sort of job situation I'd be looking into.  Getting a new place will lock me into a location for a bit so if at least again I know it'll take a while of looking moving can still happen, but if I'm finding things I could def wait...

52/60

Unlike most days, I was able to talk out my issues of today with a friend.  Which definitely helped and also helped me not have to worry about writing too much about it tonight.  Mainly I just wanted to say while the last 15 minutes of work pretty much got really under my skin out of nowhere I had no clue how to turn the day around.  I'd been proud how I had the past few days in surprising ways that just involved me thinking of the situation differently (and it really worked) but today I couldn't figure that out.  So dragging my feet I went to my rehearsal tonight (my friend wasn't going to come, plus no sleep and a bad day didn't exactly make me feel like going) and, like my reasons before, I don't know why or how, but rehearsal turned my mood around.  I don't know if it was the people, or the music, maybe switching up instruments or what, but something resonated within me and pushed out the yucky-ness I had came in with.  I'm really glad for it.  I needed it badly and never would have expected it.  Maybe not expecting it made it seem that much better too. Now I'm off to finish my book (!) before crashing.  Work tomorrow than a fun day off :)

PS-I think another good mindset I've noticed myself doing would be NOT saying, I've just got to make it through tomorrow, I know a lot of people say that but its not a positive way of looking at the situation.  I think more importantly I need to think of tomorrow as continuing my good mood from tonight.  Despite whatever today ended up being, it ended good tonight. That means I can start good tomorrow and have a great start to the day.

51/60

So today was my recharge and refuel day. Which comes in time perfectly for my 6am shift tomorrow where it'll go completely out the window. A nap before DEFP rehearsal and I should be good. I've decided today that I'll truly commit to the ideas I was talking about in my past couple posts. I know I said the same thing yesterday but I had the day off today do I didn't really get to put it to the test. And after all I know get the power of positive affirmation. And encouraging myself to do what's right I think falls into that category! Tomorrow surely will be the test and I hope to keep it on the front of my mind so I can remember it and test myself. I'm hoping for an A.

50/60

So today I had somewhat of an opportunity to put into action what I wrote about the past few days. I didnt take it up as much as I could have.  Its just very hard with people who are directly around you at times.  That being said I did get a phone call from a co-worker and I could tell me making this effort and being different from the others made a big difference to this one in particular and thats something that I can say I am very proud of.  I think thats a small reward to show me just how rewarding it can be.  Although I suppose that its the same with your integrity, no one has to know you do it, the self satisfaction should be enough.  And I think that it is.

49/50

So tonight I'm a bit more tired than I would prefer to be to write something substantial... plus I have to work in a short amount of time.  Anyways, today I've been thinking about the golden rule.  Yes its something thats been taught to most everyone as a child... but I think its still relevant.  Treat others the way you would want to be treaded.  Now I don't think I treat people poorly in fact quite the opposite.  But I also think that this could be applied in not quite a physical sense as the wording implies.  I think it could also be applied in the sense of speech and simple interaction with others.  Things like speaking poorly from others, gossiping, etc. are all things that you would not want said about yourself, so why say them about someone else.  I guess that goes well with "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all".  While I might not say mean things I know I don't follow these both, as most people don't.  But as I've noticed how negative people are I've noticed how much they don't have anything nice to say nor do they truly treat others well.  Thats something, while I think would be very challenging, would also be very beneficial.  Something that I am wanting to try and have faith that I can make progress with.  In thinking about this whole idea in my drive home from work, I also realized something about where I am in the process from a larger perspective.  When I moved back from Florida almost 3 years ago now, I decided that there was a lot I wanted to figure out about my goals and values for my life.  Something that at the time I recognized I really didn't do but wanted to.  In the past three years I only stuck to my ways even harder, and what can I say, it worked for me.  I really don't see much point in regret.  In everything I've said and realized and thought about in this blog so far I know none has been regret.  Feeling emotion and thinking and processing this information is helpful and should be done, saying you don't regret isn't the same thing and shouldn't be an excuse.  So back on topic, so now I am finally making great steps in where I wanted to be and who I wanted to become that I imagined myself doing three years ago. While its a little late along the way it feels good to be here.  I am excited and curious where this will bring me and how my perspectives will continue to evolve.  I truly feel ready for this and hope it continues to grow.

48/60

Well today was very uneventful.  Nothing to write about on a personal level so I suppose I should find a quote to write something about then!

"If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it."  -Mary Engelbreit

DONE.  Haha.  Just saying ;)  I think its amazing how true this is.  My post yesterday I think really reflected a positive change I am happy to witness.  So I suppose with my list of goals that I had come up with I at first would say that I don't like where I am at this current point with whatever the topic is (thus a goal to be something more) and I can change my current ways to achieve it, right? Thats how we all seem to achieve our goals.  But as this quote points out, and I have experienced myself, while some of these other goals seem to be more straightforward I think that I could really change the way I think about accomplishing them rather than simply trying to achieve them.  Maybe the whole key to achieving these pals is to think of each task in a different way.  That could be the start i need to get them on their way... like the positive thinking.  This is a good idea to keep in mind and I really am glad I found this quote!

2fer

So even know I already blogged today I must admit it was a pretty weak blog. So in writing this post it is good because I am writing something more substantial but I kind of feel that I am wasting another topic for tomorrow ha ha. but I guess it also makes up for the fact that I didn't blog for a day.
Anyways I wanted to write about something that I noticed had been kind of bugging me but just as I started to write this I am glad that it is bugging me and I am aware of it.
Basically I think people are so negative! I noticed first on Facebook how everyone's status seems to be always complaining and honestly it gets really annoying to read everyday. That being said I have done it to you and I know it is often a good place to vent or just express what you're feeling but it just seems to be so repetitive and primarily negative the entire time.
But at work too I noticed it pretty similar not necessarily with the guests because they are always negative LOL but for some coworkers. Sometimes it seems no I'm not at the situation or what you say or do response is always negative. I know there will always be this challenge in life and I I'm not expecting everyone to be happy all the time but it seems that what's bugging me is the consistency of the attitude and its pervasiveness in any situation.
So all and all I didn't notice I was glad that people's negative attitudes bug me because it is something that I think I have rarely experienced before. I think it says tremendous things about my current perspectives and general attitude too.
So I suppose while I am glad I am aware that negative attitudes are negatively affecting me and are often irrelevant I need to make sure that they in fact do not and I continue in a positive trend it from where I'm at.
I think that just thinking all this out for this post has turned around to my mood for the evening as well. I was kind of getting brought down from work right when I was ending my shift and I can say now I feel much better and already don't feel that negative nests that I was just when I left 10 minutes ago.
It really is a good feeling.

PS I apologize for horrible typos I am using voice to text :-)

Its finally happened

I forgot to post yesterday :(
That being said I got nearly every one of my goals for yesterday accomplished! That has to count for something at least? Maybe? Maybe not... I have similar goals for today and I should be able to get them done... that being said one of them is to go to the store to get food for work and I technically haven't made it out of bed yet today :P
But today is pay day so its a good day and work will go well as well! :)

45/60

Ok. Realistically. Goals for tomorrow;

Update my goals
Pick up room
Fold laundry
Edit remix
Practice bass
Work on DEFP
Read
Plan evening

No particular order and everything I WILL get done!